Tommorow is a big day

well, its been a long long time since my last posts. Many things happened, shit they come they go, little storm and giant one, so many peoples pass me by, some are staying and many are leaving, some left beautiful memories some left troubles.

i never thru this kind of giant storm before, and i think its funny how god punish all of my brothers in a same different way (got what i mean? life is a big bad joke)
anyway.........tommorow is my big day, it is the day when im become twenty one. and honestly i dont feel so good about it, i really dont care about it anyway. its like an evil visitor, a wrong man in the wrong place and wrong time but we accept him anyway.

speakin of storm, i'll tell you one thing : this is not a story this is reality. where theres always good cops bad cops around us, arrest peoples and harm our comfort zonas. fuck it !! we never harm anyone, we never harm you damn cops ! so why you give a fuck about what we do ? what do you want ? money ? we dont have any !
all we have is our brotherhood, we got aint no bullet to shoot and how dare you tryin to take that from us ?
you selfish evil i hope your son your wife your daughter burn in hell for this cause.
we curse anything you eat anything you buy anything you do from our money. so i made those account on the twitter, so i could try to justify the way you treated us. FUCK IT! im done.

Dear GOD, tommorow is my biggie day. And i have ONE wish, please protect peoples i love. amen

lets call it a nite..

"Iya, pokoknya di kemang! aku denger kok ada iklannya di radio!" niat sih mau ke tribute to Michael Jackson namun apa daya dirundung kenyasaran gw sotoy aja lgsg nanya ke mba2 depan barcode "Mba, acara tribute to Michael Jackson udah mulai blm ya mba?" bukan jawabannya yang bikin gw yakin bgt kalo gw ternyata salah tempat, tapi ekspresi mba2nya.

Putus asa nyaris pulang, gw acong dan nyet akhirnya memutuskan untuk balik ke mobil. Abang parkirnya udah jumawa liat gw balik ke mobil secara lo tau parkir disana ceban men. "mau keluar mas?" tanya abang parkir, "ngga bang gw mau dengerin radio" jawab gw, dengan harapan bakal dengerin iklan TTMJ lg. untung aja nyet sempet baca di twitter temennya soal acara ini. tulisannya gini doang lg "see you guys at the ROOFTOP kemang". Well, at least we found another clue. berarti ada suatu tempat di kemang yang namanya the ROOFTOP. gw pasrah dan gw berserah diri pada google. yes ketemu alamatnya, Papilion the 5th floor. "udah mas dengerin radionya?" kata abang parkir dan gw menjawab dengan senyuman dan selembar duit goceng

Nyampe jg men akhirnya di Papilion, langsung gw nyet dan acong berhamburan ke tkp. yeah we made it safe and sound to the 5th floor. langsung gw nyet dan acong berhamburan masuk langsung cari posisi enak untuk nonton, paling depan, di depan table orang hihiii maafkan aku oom tante penghuni table, at least punggung bagus kan ?

Great music, Great peoples, Great spot, and most of all, i got it for free alias gretongan slonong bae. sederet Artis Ibukota macem Aditya, Drew, Aki, Tere, DIra, Maia, Afghan, dan lala bikin gw ga mau geser dari tempat gw, dan maia bikin acong megap2 keringet dingin. disitu gw liat socialites laen macem intan, nicolas saputra dewi sandra banyak lah pokonya. Waktu acaranya lg pecah2nya bgt, satu cewe yang rusuh joget2 depan gw tasnya gede anjing gedebag gedebug kena badan gw. untung ga gw marahin tu orang. usut punya dia orang ternyata dipanggil Reni. If reni doesnt ring a bell maybe Reni Sutiyoso will ring it for you. pantaat! gw jg bakal belagu kalo bapa gw yang punya jakarta hahaa.

Sebuah kata terakhir gw buat Mikey Jacko
Go go go go jacko, its your deadday, we gonna party like its your birthday, we gonna sip bacardi like its your birthday. Gw bakal kehilangan lo, seorang teman, sahabat, kerabat, saudara, a brother for me, an idol for some people. Men, karya lo udah menginspirasi jutaan umat manusia di dunia, pesan damai yang lo bawa akan kami teruskan ke anak cucu kami, even you are such a pedogay, the worst combination in the universe, We'll miss you..

Heal The World,
Make It A Better Place..
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race..
There Are People Dying,
If You Care Enough
For The Living..
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me..

bandung lautan idealisme part II

mlm itu hujan deras mengguyur bandung dengan sejuta pesonanya,


hohoMan : laper bgt ni gw nyet, makan yu

yoBoy : ayo Man, et dah mo kemana lo rapih amat..

hohoMan : gw mau gereja nyet, ntr anterin gw ya ke gereja..


yoBoy pun mencari korek di kamarnya yg berantakan kyk kandang babi di bom,
take a really deep breath of his ciggarette, dan menatap komputernya kembali.
menatap wallpaper seorang pria tersenyum tanpa beban, dengan tulisan kecil di bawahnya : aswethinkweis. bahkan dia pun ga ngerti apa artinya, tapi toh dia membiarkan ambiguitas itu menjadi sebuah senyuman. Seenggaknya buat dia, dan hohoMan
playing on foobar2000 : padi - sobat

bandung lautan idealisme part I

di suatu hari yg cerah delima,
hiduplah seorang anak muda baru lulus esema yg dapet kuliahan di bandung.
kata temennya SiBudakBandung sih enak bgt tinggal di bandung.

enak loh disini adem, cewenya cakep2 lg coi,
mana ce cakepnya mao naek angkot lg, di jakarta mah ora ada, ya pan ?
makanannya enak2 murah2, kaga jauh2 amat lg dari kota pinggiran jakarta rumah lo itu
barang bentaran ada tol langsungbandung jadi gampang bgt lo bisa bolak balik bantaran 3 jam

dan jadi lah doi mendadak bandung..
membawa mimpi dan harapan orang tuanya.
menyerahkan masa depan anaknya di di pundak labilnya yg rapuh.

to be continue...ngantuk berat -___-

skip aja tulisan ga penting ini

hufff lama jg gw ga ngeblog,
mungkin karna ujan di bandung yg bikin gw tidur mulu, cap tikus maenan baru gw,
ato hidup gw yg lumayan membaik kemaren2 ini......

ga tau kenapa, blog gw ini isinya tulisan2 gelap kyk gini semua..
ga tau kenapa, kalo mood gw lagi bagus gw ga pernah sekalipun kepikiran untuk ngeblog lg..
ga tau kenapa, gw ga bisa nulis blog kalo ada orang lain yg liat tulisan gw sebelum gw post..
ga tau kenapa, gw susah bgt buat curhat ke orang. even gw idup 24 jam sama dia.
ga tau kenapa, tulisan gw self centered bgt, kritik kentang buat gw gigit sendiri..
dan ga tau kenapa ga tau kenapa yg berentet rentet rentet rentet ga tau kenapa..

tapi gw tau. internet tempatnya pengecut, at least buat gw.
lokalisasi kepengecutan gw atas hidup gw.
kuliah gw. shit.
kapan mo lulus bego ?

"gw bangun jam setengah 8, dan gw harus kuliah jam 8.
daripada gw mikirin kenapa gw telat bangun, kenapa gw ga bisa tidur semalem, aduh kalo gw mandi telat lg nih; berangkat ga ya ? apa nitip absen aja ya ? dan gw larut dlm pikiran gw.
mending gw langsung mandi trs berangkat kuliah..."
(dia yang tak boleh disebutkan namanya- bukan ped*y kok)

dah ah, mudah2an ini terakhir kali gw bikin posting gelep bener kyk gini.

next post : bandung undercover

sebuah catatan apatis

hadooohhh...
bangun pagi, berangkat ke kampus, ngobrol ngobrol ngobrol ngobrol di kampus,
padahal dlm hati..
gw deg2an.
hari ini hari penentuan koordinator divisi acara emotion,
sesuatu yg gw pengenin bgt..sebuah goal tersendiri buat gw.
dimana kreasi lo, hasil buah pikiran dan kerja keras lo dinikmati ratusan bahkan ribuan orang,
dimana kreatifitas lo dan pengorbanan lo jadi sebuah kenangan buat banyak orang,
dan membuat mereka merasakan sensasi gokil yang ga bakal mereka lupain :
satisfaction

dan bagi gw, jadi koor divisi acara emotion itu penting bgt.
its like adrenalin. the pain is such a sudden rush for me.
the glory, and the pride.
its about being somebody, or nobody..

and after three-failure-in-a-row to reach my goal, finally.........

i failed.
gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal, gagal......................
gw terus ngulangin kata2 itu dalam hati, sampe gw lupa apa artinya gagal.
its four-failure-in-a-row !!! 4 kegagalan berturut-turut.
4 kata gagal berderet.
4 kali gw kehilangan rasa percaya diri gw, 4 kali gw ngerasain rasanya kalah.
and im thinking ? whats wrong with the people ???
have they lost their nuts ? even a prick can decide better than that !!
hahaha..even my inner voice mocking me, even my pets mocking me.
my molurus python peeing and poo in my room's carpete. shit.
i hit the bottom.
crushed, i keep my eyes open but it blurry..
my world spinning upside down, my inner voice laughing on my failure....
geez, whutta life huh ?!

come to think of it, its not the people..
its not them that make me feel this way!
its not my miss-im-too-busy-enjoying-my-very-beautiful-life-to-call-or-write-my-ex-boyfriend,
its not my buddy, its not the meth, not the grass, not the alcohol.....
its me.

it is this half-alive-half-a frog-and-a-little bit of-anger,pride,perspective-human being.
that thought the world is created to be so hard to survive.
he even thought he has to be harder to reach his goal, his pride and his glory.
manipulate peoples, tricking and pretending,
to keep his value high. to keep his social state still in their place.
he thought with his mind he is the one that will conquer the world.
he thought the world will be better if it spinning in his way.
the way that he want to..
and he hits the bottom,
he failed.

but,
he never quit.
winner never quit, quiter never win.
and right now,
he is laughing in the face of his failure..
maybe he is an egoist and selfish jerk for those who dont understand.
a freak idealist, he dont see this world like you do.
he walk through his life without apologies.
because he knows,
he is the one.

Hi, my name is : METHAMPHETAMINE

" I AM METH "

I destroy homes, I tear families apart, I take your children and that's just the start. 

I'm more valued than diamonds, more precious than gold. 

The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. 

If you need me, remember I'm easily found. I live all around you in school and in town. 

I live with the rich, I live with the poor, I live just down the street and maybe next door. 

I'm made in a lab, but not like you think: I can be made under the kitchen sink, in your child's closet, and even in the woods. 

If this scares you to death, then it certainly should. 

I have many names, but there's one you will know best, I'm sure you've heard of me. 

My name is Crystal Meth. 

My power is awesome, try me you'll see: But if you do you may never break free!! 

Just try me once and I might let you go. But if you try me twice then I'll own your soul. 

When I posses you, you'll steal and you will lie, 

You'll do what you have to do, just to get high. 

The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms will be worth the pleasures you feel in my arms. 

You'll lie to your mother, you'll steal from your dad. 

When you see their tears you must feel sad. 

Just forget your morals and how you were raised. I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways. 

I take kids from their parents, I take parents from their kids. I separate friends. 

I turn people from God. 

I'll take everything from you your looks and your pride. 

I'll be with you always right from by your side. 

You'll give up everyhting, your family, your home, your money, your true friend, then you'll be alone. 

I'll take and take till you have no more to give. 

When I finish with you, you'll be lucky to live. 

If you try be warned this is not a game, 

If I'm given the chance I'll drive you insane. 

I'll ravage your body, I'll control your mind, I'll own you completely. 

Your soul will be mine. 

The nightmares I'll give you when you're lying in bed. 

And the voices you'll hear from inside your head, the sweats, the shakes, and the vision you'll see: 

I want you to know these things are gifts from me. 

By then it's to late, and you'll know in your heart. That you are now mine and we shall not part. 

You'll regret that you tried me (they always do), but you come to me, not I to you. 

You knew this would happen. Many times you were told. But you challenged my power. 

You chose to be bold. 

You could have said no and walk away, If you could live that day over now, what would you say? 

My power is awesome, as I told you before, I can take your life and make it so dim, and sore. 

I'll be your master and you'll be my slave. I'll even go with you when you go to your grave. 

Now that you've met me, what will you do? Will you try me or not? It's all up to you. 

I can show you more misery than than words can tell. 

Come take my hand, let me take you to hell.

whatever you called it,

Glass, ice, crystal, crank, speed, shabu, Nazi dope, annie’s dope, annie, poor man's cocaine, yaba, ubi, ubas, putih, nyelem, blubuk-blubuk, berenti makan, i'll tell u sumthin :

it feels really good.